Is he willing to sacrifice the time and make the effort? Healing can occur, and a new and better M can be forged from these ashes. You hold the cards, and you get to decide whether or not to give him the chance.
I'm not sure he can make the effort to be honest - quite a few times already he has said he is going to leave because he can't stand how it is at the moment - he always calms down and apologises and says he didn't mean it but it doesn't really look promising that he wants to bail out at the very start of this extremely long journey!
I know these times are painful and difficult, but look at me. I was given no chance, no opportunity, not even a glimmer of hope, just totally blindsided. Think long and hard about just how important this M is to you IP. Take all the time you need. You're right, I'm in a better position than most - just wish it took away some of the pain. I cannot make sense of my feelings right now. I just don't think I can love him and forgive him. It all seems so impossible. I just feel such anger that I have been put in the position of possibly ending the M and hurting my children because of his actions not mine.
