What the heck am I doing back on Page 3 with all of the locked threads?
Well, what can I say, it's weird to be among the people listed as being a success at db-ing. I don't really feel like that, because if Wolfie hadn't given it a chance, we wouldn't be where we are now. I've really got to say, it took a lot of bravery and integrity for him to come home and face up to all that had occurred and to face up to my pain and rage at him. This bb helped me to tone down the expressing of my own feelings, and to keep my goal at the forefront of my mind, and therefore my actions.
Where are we now? Things are stable, calm and we show a lot of love to each other. I am more at ease now in this R than I have been in years.
I know that he knows I'm having a hard time with painful memories right now. So...yeah, he's a bit lame in the romance and communication department, but everytime I look at him, he smiles and his eyes are full of love. When he doesn't know what else to do...he does the physical thing...from hugs and kisses to ML. It ain't perfect, but it's pretty wonderful.
I have used this board to do a great deal of venting and coping, but I don't know if I have expressed a great deal how much I adore that man.
If we are a success at DB-ing, it's because of him rising to the occassion and breaking generations of bad examples.
Here's to me and Wolfie...in this life and in the next!
