Stop waiting for your W to get her head out of her a$$...
That isn't up to you...
You are still trying to manipulate the situation.
If you weren't, you wouldn't be so upset that she hasn't responded to a few moments of transparency from you and a few moments of showing her the changed Denver.
Reality, you have tried just as hard to make her jealous and change her mind that way by flirting with other women as you have by being open and honest about what is in your heart.
Your words and actions aren't matching up. Sorry.
You could rent a billboard and proclaim your undying love there and right now, it would seem no more believable because of your lack of consistency.
Not in contact/NC...
But in what you are showing her.
She needs to see it, and even with little contact, she will (they do see it believe it or not), and she needs to see it consistently and for a long time...
That doesn't happen by checking her email, by dating OW, by flirting...
It happens when you live and appear happy and content. By yourself. Not with other people.
It is really up to you.
Cat - Thanks. I know that you are right. I have backslid a few times for sure. I'm trying to get to the point that you, MHL and others are telling me I need to be. I really am.
Right now though... I just really miss my W and SS. It has only been one month since I was spending every minute of every day with them for a week at Disney World.
It is taking every fiber of my being and will power to NOT reach out to W right now.
Because I know that this isn't up to me...
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M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
