Everwhere is walking distance if you have the time

[ClingingToHope]

Kat, I've closed no doors in my life. If something happened and magically XW showed up saying it was a mistake and she wanted to work on the R again I would not turn her down. It would take an awful lot to ever trust her again though. I see what Mishka is going through and it's a tough situation.

Either way I have to become more consistent in treating everyone with respect. I'm always playing angles. Trying to get things just like I want them. When someone is no longer useful or an impediment I treat them differently. That has to stop.

Journaling -- XW over again tonight. She is having major struggles getting bus routes set up correctly for girls. I could have done this last week when on vacation, but this is her responsibility so I stayed out of it.

Still, she feels it is necessary to call me after every phone call with the district.

Anyway, in final phone call D12 asked her to come over and sign marching band papers. Since XW was coming, D9 wanted her to read and sign her school handbook.

XW was coming from her mom's house because she had to pick up the dog. The fact the dog was there meant that she had another showing of the house, which still isn't selling after she dropped the price $20k.

So she was over for 30 minutes. I took the dog out to play. Hung around the living room for a bit. Then it was over.

My day? Got a few things done at work. Got a request to work another running race this weekend. I'll only be able to do one of two days (missing out on $175). So here's my weekend:

Friday -- regular job until 4 p.m. Pick up D9 and take her to XW's. Then head to high school football game to earn extra $45 as scoreboard operator. Also covering game for newspaper because of the budget cuts.

Saturday -- head to town 60 minutes away to shoot pool video for my sister's company. Wanted to change this but the guy actually shooting the video really, really needs the money. I'm making like $75. He's making $300 or so. After, head to Chicago suburb for Sunday race.

Sunday -- beginning at 12:30 a.m. head to running race and work until about 4 p.m. Then home to ... sleep probably because I'll be back to regular job on Monday.

Ten years from now when child support is a memory and I'm hopefully in a bigger house in a better place in life I'll look back at this time and wonder how I put this all together.