Wife no longer in love with me - Part 2

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You're right Country....I'm not patient, I struggle to feel like I have time....in a way I find it hard to see that because of her nationality and the fact she can leave the country at any time. If she was guaranteed to stay in Australia then I could be more patient. But now, I feel like I will never see her again once she decides to leave.
I am trying to relax, and I think not having any contact with her over the last few weeks helps that. As soon as she contacts me I get edgy. I booked a trip to the Maldives in a months time to get away and relax and surf.

I have given a lot of thought about how she would have felt with my actions, and it makes me sad. Sad for her that she put up with that, and sad for the way our M has gone. I know she felt unappreciated and taken for granted – its hard because I know in my heart that I never felt that way, but I did struggle to demonstrate it all the time. I can’t think about this stuff and not have regret. I will always be remorseful for my part in bringing us here.

I know I have a lot more work to do on myself and my reactions and interactions with her. And these are all good points and I need to consider them. I’m not sure how she would respond to my words – most likely it would just be a simple ‘thank you’ from her. She will avoid confrontation and discussing it at all costs unless I start the pressuring again.