Had a good couple of days thinking very little about WAS as I can. Hard to keep her totally out of my mind since she is now texting me daily. Chit chat stuff ... nothing serious. Not sure if I should keep replying to her or not. I was her best friend while we were together. We texted each other good mornings ... how our day was going ... what to cook for dinner etc. etc. etc. I see these new text as nothing but the same context as those we sent to each other while she planned her exit. Is she wanting her friend back ... but not the husband? Is she playing with me to see if she could come back. Or is she now just lonely being single again? Who knows! I do know Sandi2 woke me up. My kids are doing just fine without the drama around the house. They're helping around the house without any lip what so ever. My D comes and gives me a big hug when I walk through the door after work. She didn't do this when WAS and I were together. She did see WAS do it everyday so maybe she's imitating her a bit. Whatever the cause I like it.
The kids and I are starting to settle into our new lives without "Mom" in it. I know I cannot make WAS spend more time with them that is something she will have to do on her own. I will have to set boundaries with her though. When WAS does want to spend time with them she just text them she's picking them up without discussing with me if we had plans or not. Just I'm coming to get you. I see I need to get the book concerning boundaries and how to set them.
I'm really not sure what I want anymore. Maybe setting these boundaries will give me direction and more self worth.
Me 44 WAW 37 S 14 D 12
M 18 yrs T 20 yrs WAS 7-27-09 WAS #2 6-10-11
"Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome."
