Random Musings, I peg this MLC spouse journey at approx 2 yrs 2months. When I first came on here I looked in awe and disgust that success could mean moving on without your spouse. How you could be a success without saving your marriage. How can you save yourself first.
I understand those things much better now.
I am stronger. There will be life outside this marriage. I am a better communicater with people in general. I am a better communicater with my children. I am better at knowing myself. I do have a life. One that I am choosing now and not blaming someone else for.
To those in pain. Time is an ally. Especially for yourself. I honestly couldn"t make any of these statements 6 months ago.
I still love my wife. and guess what thats OK. I know that. She is on a different path and thats OK too. We really don't communicate. If I'm honest I'm sure thats her choice. I don't know why and really im OK with that as well. I don't know what tomorrow will bring. Its like living life spontaneously. It's kinda cool!!!
This is more of a post for people that are hurting. I was there. Am I 100% in the clear. No way. Cycling back does happen. Things will continue to get better.
My STBXW has never looked back in her journey. Full steam ahead. I know her internal struggles will continue until she looks at herself. In fact she would laugh at this statement. I only say this so people understand where I see on her journey.
Wishing all the DB's the ability see beyond what is right in front of them and at the gifts this journey will bring them in the future.
