My faith gives me the courage to move forward

[25yearsmlc]

Yeah, that is kinda strange. Why on earth would he buy you a rolls? As for the vegetables, haven't you always said he does little things like that, anyway? Like you were his sister or something.

exactly, and the mother of his child, and I'm sorry to say, but I think it must be said,

I think your h pities you. And pity is not love. Read NOTHING into a gesture like that. I literally gave my neighbors a huge bag of apples yesterday b/c our fruit trees went bonkers this year and there are too many. We are stepping all over fruit in the yard and I cannot make any more apple pies or apple butter or fruit roll ups...so I gave a ton of food away. I don't want to marry the people I gave the fruit to.

I'm also giving a used car to a needy family my d14 knows...I don't want to marry them either.

It's charity.

You deserve more but you're so stuck. And we can only watch and encourage you to make a move.

But only you can. It's your life...sure wish you'd take charge of it.

Oh, and about the fb guy, in addition to what others have rightly pointed out

there are more women on FB than men, period.

I don't know what you want. Would you prefer a man who came from a monastery?

As Bond said, your reaction wasn't kind. Your fears made you unkind so that's not a good thing.

What actually happened, and NOT what you fear it means....

is that a nice man who is attractive and seemed to like you, took you out for dinner. Then he Said he wanted to friend you on FB (=he wasn't hiding anything, he was open) and then when you saw the number of 120 (a normal# in our age group)

you counted out the # of women?? Then you judged him, convicted him...all to protect yourself from further pain. Pain of what? Rejection? Being alone?
But you are alone. Your h rejected you and is with OW. That hurt. But it was a long time ago now. More importantly, as of today, how is staying inside and emotionally closed off, helping you?

You won't gain a thing, or a friend- in life without risk.

But you can lose a lot by not taking any risk. You stay in endless limbo/hell. And I don't even want to know what that does to your son's view of women and marriage. (Your h isn't responsible for all of that.)

Please see a new t and or try new meds...No shame in that. Been there, done that.

As for your GAL things...
How's school going? How much longer do you have til you get your degree?

How's your new business?