She is going to rehash the past over and over, because that is all she really knows of you. Even if you have changed, it would take a lot of re-programming for her to believe and accept it. She is testing you to see if you have strength and resolve in your changes.
Just because you went back to your old way of feeling and thinking, it doesn't mean you haven't changed, or that you cannot learn from what you feel and work on it. It is called back-sliding, and it is part of this process. Part of your growth is learning to accept you will have down moments, but resolving to shake them off anyway. This is possibly where true inner strength must be summoned, during the down-cycles.
She came to you to discuss R. She even wants to meet in person. Small positive sign, take it for what it is. She is having doubts. Find a way to avoid her R talk for now. What she really wants to do is test you and your congruence (whether you have actually changed and it is not just an act or illusion). You must avoid the tests, and/or pass the ones she does manage to hook you on. Stick to the basics, avoid R talk, GAL and stay busy. Keep letting her see you have changed, just don't discuss it with her.
Hold the line!
SF
Spellfire aka Mike
"Women do not like controlling men. They respect and are attracted to men who control themselves. They ultimately are repelled by men who allow themselves to be controlled." -S&A
