chaos thanks. I think there may be underlying anger. Her decision just seems so nonsensical to me. Way too extreme. It will hurt way too many people, all of whom I love more than anything in this world. Right now, I actually feel bad for my wife. She is going through hell. I fear that my feelings may skew towards anger and resentment.
I struggle with how to deal with her. I am trying to not start conversations about anything other that day to day things and the kids. A big part of our problems is that I didn't communicate with her. I didn't show her that I respected and appreciated what she did. I feel it's critical to try to do that now but not too much so it seems disingenuous. She definitely notices these words. Sometimes asks why I didn't share them in the past. Kind of walking a tight rope here.
Haven't tried meditation but I have done yoga a few times which is unbelievably out of character for me. It is relaxing.
