I am one of those that takes hope in your sitch., but I've also been to the place where he's come home and I was still totally wacked out over the whole thing and could not get past the betrayal at that point. Your handling it much better than I did/am. I know your full of insecurites and still have alot of healing to do. Unfortunately there is no way around that. Your going in the right direction though Tal. I too, am right here with you. Rachael