For most women, [can't speak for men as i haven't been one!] sex without emotions is a bit meaningless. You are so honest to share this. It is a temptation to try and recreate something we had and missed.
Actually I think this is something a lot of MLCers try and do, and deny the essential meaninglessness of it.
I think anyone of us could have found ourselves where you are . . not sure all of us would have been so honest about it.
You are a wonderful woman P
PS You xh does not loathe you. He has strong emotion which might express itself in those terms. If he felt nothing that is what you would get. Nothing. As it is there is something. Just not very nice right now
