kml, it was wrong what i did, thankfully my mom had left with the children. I wont lie, it felt really good at the time.
I have turned this matter over to the lawyers now.
My house is on the market for sale, and I have put an offer on a new home with alot less property and a lot less work required day to day. the builder will put a pool in for me so the kids will still have that and it is in the same small town we live in now. Nice thing is its brand new and the builder accepted my conditional offer that i sell mine first.
I am focusing on my health and kids. MY DR did adjust my treatment plan as the IV treatment was really knocking me down. They are now using pills and i seem to be able to function better. it is working and my marker number is down in my blood work. I will be having part of my stomach removed, but i chose this course of action first in the hopes that it works.
Now as for my galing, pretty much on hold for the most part. I have been spending a hour or 2 a week learning how to roller blade. Pretty much in the garage and drive way so i can go around the car and have something to grab when i fall. Pretty weak and cant do it long, but the kids love to see the effort. They watch me and do it with me, when i pass out on the lawn they all laugh and have fun. I have now put the patio chairs in the garage so i can sit and just watch them. Sometimes, i even put on my blades and sit in the chair. Just so i can feel like im doing it with them.
My social calander is getting busy now that soccer is over, everyone seems to want to start coming around on the weekends. My work has asked me to have a bbq at my home in september for the office staff. I agreed, that should be lots of fun.
I have taken my BIL and he has gotten his learners permit, i can still teach him how to drive and not kill myself. My plan is to drive to Winnipeg (27 hour) drive with him at the end of September to visit my brother and his wife.
As you can probably tell, its 1:30 am, and tonights events have me wide awake.
