Do what I can but still have questions 3

[soccerwife]

I am so terrified of what H will say tomorrow. I can't sleep at all anyway. I am having such anxiety right now I feel as though my lungs will be squeezed right out of my chest and out my mouth. My heart is beating so rapidly I just can't calm down.

I hope my talk with Laurie gives me the confidence I need to face a conversation with H.

I know what he is going to want me to talk about... a mediated D and what I expect it to look like. what do I say. Telling him it is his decision is starting to make him angry. I can't do this...

I have spent hours praying to God to help H see the truth, see the damage he is doing to this family.

How do I keep from going downstairs and begging him to stay? I can't do this...