Punkin - go easy on yourself. This is a rough way of life. During the first Divorce Care class I took - they made it abundantly clear - relationships right now are a bad idea. I think that truly the relationships are "quick fixes".
Take your time - be kind to yourself!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time