It has been ONE year since the bomb. Living in limbo. H coming and going. Last physical contact 3 months for all of us. Last time it was awkward but did some stuff around house. That is when he took me aside and told me more about OW and his regrets. No telephone contact with kids for 3 months. Me-we went 6 weeks with NC. Last couple weeks once in awhile for financial reasons. No, I guess I am not done. When I wrote I was I felt like that but it does come and go. Maybe it is my family I am trying to hang onto though. So, if we do get together- He wants to talk about the sitch. What do you recommend I say? Honestly, I don't know if I am coming or going anymore. No, nothing would bring me peace I suppose. I used to think him coming back as a changed person to who he used to be and saying he was sorry and made a lot of mistakes would do it. And, willing to get help for us and his drinking. I fear there will never be a chance again to make this work. He is such a coward that he wouldn't fight for us even if he wanted to if I file. DOes that make sense. Easier just to leave it alone. I can't risk finances anymore. I would do anything for my kids. He only apologized after I contacted him to tell him why I did what I did with MY finances. I mentioned had we would have got together it could have been avoided. He had the ususal excuse. My thought right now is who thinks they can be married and still live with OW?!? I guess a lot of people. But, enough is enough in my opinion.
