Punches??What punches?

[Redo]

Journaling...

Wife and I are trying to teach daughter some songs. I know more than wife so I try to make her repeat after me when we skype.

Last night she sang one fully on her own. I was very proud. Wife was very excited. She was asking me again and again how i felt. I told her that i felt very proud and that if i was there i would have hugged daughter. Then she started talking about her cousin's kids and how his wife teaches the kids. Then she started saying how she too tries to so stuff. I was just listening. Did not say anything. Then she said "yea i guess you would not understand. Gotta go now". I just said okay and hung up.

All this crazy drama. Now i see this drama. In the past i would have freaked out that wife was angry because of something i must have done. I could have called back begging her to tell me if i had done something wrong. She would have said that i did not respond to her comment. And then an argument would have broken out and W would have ended up telling me how i don't support her in anything. So funny. After years of going through this, i can predict the event unfolding down to even tiny details

Now i can see it. She just likes the drama. Why i don't know. She obviously felt insecure when comparing herself to her cousin's wife. She does this a lot and never once did i actually make her feel bad. Always told her a 'white' lie. But she always prolonged the drama.

When i see all this now, i don't know how i managed all those years. Now i see why i always had that crazy feeling that i always had to be on my guard of not upsetting her. It got so tiring after we had our daughter. I know that my weak emotional attitude also contributed heavily to all the craziness.

I know that she is upset after yesterday's convo. It did bother me a bit for a little while. But i brushed it off. I cannot be hanging onto every dysfunctional feeling of hers. Sounds harsh. But i gotta keep my sanity too...