Reflection

[GAL Man]

Part 4

So about me, how am I?

Good question I ask myself.

1)       I digested that W is now seeing OM, didn't hurt as much as I thought it might. I didn't have much time to actually think about this last week tbh with everything which was going on.

2)       What's getting me though this not hurting as much?, I keep telling myself I can not control this one jot, these are her choices so nothing to do with me, look after my well-being

3)       I understand that I will feel emotions of anger, hurt etc and to except them when they come along, but not react to them

4)       I am not reacting to anything (well a good 95% anyhow) I realise that there will be times when I "fall off" the tightrope, but just understand why these occasions happen and get back on.

5)       Changes in me, the kids see it, and have commented that I am different and happier. Some is acting, but not nowhere near the amount post bomb, this is who I am

6)       I have realised that the changes in me have stuck, and I love them, this is me, who I am (quite a few 180's as mentioned before)

7)       I have really found out things about myself, esp the person I am inside, my morals and beliefs

8)       I am proud of the way I have conducted myself in these last few months, and will remain on this new path

9)       I still love my W, whilst my unconditional love has no boundaries, my friendship does, that is why W is not my friend atm

10)   I don't care about W anymore, but I do care about my W, hope that makes sense LOL

11)   I have not looked this good for years, love it.

12)   I am still married, and will not just jump into bed with someone else, I will have some fun and flirt etc when out on the town, but that's it.

13)   I do not want another relationship just yet, more reflection and learning about myself required first. HOWEVER if something comes along (I am not trying to find someone) and things click, then we shall see

14)   GAL, still good. Really enjoying my time with the kids, we have played board games for the last 5 nights LOL, been bowling, out for lunch, shopping, cooking and creating a happy environment for them.

15)   "single" GAL still good also, this centres around seeing friends, family and going out.

16)   I do feel happier, not brilliant, but getting there day by day

17)   Not think about W ALL the time now, stop signs help!! The main thing I have noticed is when trying to get to sleep, as I am now thinking about other things again (about time too) but improvement STILL needed here! (obviously think all morning about things as I am posting a lot of info LOL)



So all in all, I think this is the best way I can describe where I current am.......hope this makes sense!


I am on a new path, which has twists and turns.

This path is not as "hilly" as the old path, but it still has some bumps, gradients and pot holes along the route

I can now see the destination, but it is still in the distance

However, I can see the journey in front of me, what I need to do and how to get there

There may be more challenges ahead on this journey, and some are expected, but these will not stop my resolve

I am not sure how long this journey will take, but I will get there, in the end.........