TM,
I relate to so much of what you wrote above. Even a year+ later, I still have these same feelings. Fortunately, they aren't as strong as they were or last as long, but still...

We're here to prop each other up as needed. Hang in there!

Me 43 W 38
M 5 T 7
SD20
S15, S13 with 1st W
ILYBNILWY June 2010
Separation/Bomb July 2010
Divorce Feb 8, 2011