Yes, I think you're right, it probably is far too fresh for me to see a way forward. I seem to be stuck at the moment.
H changed his mobile phone number last night. I thougt it would make me feel more relaxed but it hasn't - as soon as he had done it I thought "what does this actually achieve? he could just give her the new number if he wanted to". Will these awful panic thoughts ever go away? I don't want to live like this forever and can't see how you ever stop checkign up on them.
