I've got 54 days to receive a miracle.

[tadpole1025]

Thanks AJ and Antonia. You guys have been a tremendous help to me.

She may be trying to run away but she hasn't let go.

AJ, sometimes I agree with that statement, but other times I just don't know. The way that she acts sometimes tells me that she has let go, then other times I wonder. Then there are times that common sense will tell me that you just can't "let go" of someone that you have spent a quarter of a century with so easily. I know that I sure am having a hard time with it.

Remember the good times fondly. They were good times. But she is not that person right now. She may or may not be again, but she will remain somebody different longer if you are in the picture.

Sometimes this just doesn't make sense to me.

Antonia, I will look for the book. Thanks for the suggestion.

I "really" started my new job today after orientation last Friday. I'm beat. So much different than what I am used to doing. Atleast I am now employed again and hopefully it is a light for me at the end of the tunnel. Things were really starting to get rough financially. I still won't see any money for a few weeks, but I know it is coming.

I'm convinced that my W is just totally weird. Last night she left a message on my FB page that was pretty hateful. I was going to respond to it or call or text her, but I decided to just delete it. No response from me. (That is something different.)

My mom was diagnosed with Diabetes a few months ago and today, I get this text from W right out of the blue:

"Please pass this info on to your mother: eating processed meats that contain preservatives may increase the risk for diabetes and heart disease. The Harvard School of Public Health recommends limiting intake of bacon, salami, sausage, hot dogs, deli and lunch meats. So, she should only be eating fresh meats."

What?

Huh?

WTF?

???

So damn weird.

So after waiting about six hours, I write:

"I will pass it on. Thank you. I hope you have a wonderful week!"

No response.

I actually thought about responding with:

"Why don't you tell her yourself?" That probably wouldn't have sounded right though.

What the hell was that all about and why?

Thanks for all of your help. Going to bed because I have to get up early tomorrow for my JOB.

Take care.

Tad