I have no doubt that it stems from a dysfunctional childhood (alcoholism, along with sexual behavior not being very well-kept from children's eyes/ears). The thing is, I've ALWAYS felt ashamed about myself, whether it's for one thing or another.
Just as your W has lingering trauma in her life.
You may as well.
And just like her you will have to want to face your demons West. Stop being a victim of it.
You learned this behavior. May be time to unlearn it?
None of us here are health professionals. I only know that if you dig down far enough you will find the root of your problem.
You have to learn to love yourself West before you can conceive of someone else loving you.
It may be convenient to place the blame on your W based on her choices but that is avoiding a problem and wasting an opportunity.
Opportunity?
To begin to learn that you are worthy of being loved. That you are not what someone taught you to feel about yourself.
That you control what kind of man you want to be.
You need only decide to be him.
How do you think you can do that?
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
