W: "Are you interested in just going to the concert with SS and I?"
I responded:
Me: "As much as I want to say yes W, I just don't think that it is a good idea. I will definitely be missing being with you guys though."
Just called SS to see how his first day of school went.
He and W were shopping for some new school clothes.
We talked about that and school briefly.
Then he asked me if I was going to the concert tomorrow night.
I told him that I wasn't. That it wasn't a good idea for me to go. That he and his mom needed some space apart. That I really want to go but that it's not a good idea right now. I then said that we will go to another in the future.
SS said: "that's what you said last time"
He was referring to a concert that I had gotten us all tickets to last summer before W and I separated.
I did not go to that concert bc W and I had gotten into a huge argument about something f'ing stupid and I was throwing a fit.
When SS said that tonight, I said, "This is different bud. I am not mad at your mom, and I want to go. It's just not a good idea right now."
SS said ok. I told him to have a good time at the concert, that I loved him, and we got off of the phone.
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This has been the absolute worst day that I've had in a long time. I am absolutely miserable not knowing if I am doing the right thing or if I am handling my sitch in the right way.
I'm trying to be consistent but also polite and as loving as I can be.
Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
