Sandi I stand corrected my mistake it was Oct 2009. Also your right I stopped posting. I'm not sure as to why I did. Maybe I do know why and just don't want to say it. Facing the fact that I have allowed someone like my WAS to do this to me over and over is shameful. She's like a drug that I cannot let go of. Your also right about my kids. I have let her hurt them again. I always thought when I heard of other couples going through what I'm going through, that I would never stand for it and would walk the other way and never look back. Yet here I am once again. The addict.
Sandi it wasn't that I didn't respect the advice I was getting. It was the advice I didn't want to hear. If that makes sense? You see I wanted her back so bad I would have done anything and what I was being told seemed counter productive to where I wanted to be. I didn't want to wait. Big mistake ... lessen learned. I know I got all worked up when she text'd me 2 days ago. However, I leveled my thoughts and did an about face. Deep down inside I know this is not the woman I should spend the rest of my life with. It is just so damned hard to detach. At times I feel I'm walking down wind through a hurricane with debris knocking the heck out of me all along the way. I took the easy road or so I thought. WAS never had the intent on making the marriage work. She wanted a place to lay her head. Wanted the security of shared expenses. UGH! lord help me to be strong. If not for me, but for my kids sake.
Me 44 WAW 37 S 14 D 12
M 18 yrs T 20 yrs WAS 7-27-09 WAS #2 6-10-11
"Success is to be measured not so much by the position that one has reached in life as by the obstacles which he has overcome."
