thatgirl007, I'm riding that same bus. I just call it the crazy train. I wish I had some advice for you but since I'm still spinning myself, I have no idea to what to say...
Although, sometimes I think our S's are confused because we allow them to be. When the choice is no longer their choice to make, I have to wonder if they will quickly find clarity. The old saying about how some people do not realize what they have until it's gone seems to apply.
Just know that I'm thinking about you and wishing you the best.
I wish I had some advice for you but since I'm still spinning myself, I have no idea to what to say...