When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Good point you guys. No, he has never been verbally demonstrative (oh heck, my college English is coming out with that little phrase isn't it? LOL). I'm not sure why I expect him to be any different now. I guess it's just that he had been telling me every now and then but it's been a few months since the last time and I feel more distant from him.

You know, it could be that I'm distancing myself from him though, not the other way around. I swear that my fears are going to become a self-fulfilling prophecy if I keep this up. I pull back to protect myself because of the past and I'm afraid to speak openly to him because I can't stand another rejection from him.

Oh yeah, and it didn't help matters that his new job is two streets away from where the broom lives. That set my teeth on edge SO bad. This job is driving around all over Atlanta so it's not like he's there at all during the day, but just the fact that he starts and ends his day that close to her made my blood go icy cold yesterday morning when I realized it. I'm sure that was a trigger for sure.