A new perspective???

[irishblessings]

Antonia - thanks for the response. And thanks for sharing your readings - I'm always looking to learn something new:)

I would agree to some degree that I've not "accepted" this new life. This is not the life I chose. I chose to share my life with someone I loved and respected. I chose to commit myself to my marriage vows. I chose to make my family the number one priority in my life.

But this is the life I have right now. I can't walk away from my responsibilities. I have a son who deserves to be cared for.

I absolutely HATE what I have become through this. The very things I thought were my strengths - have been reduced to visible failings. My resiliency is gone - my genuine joy is gone. My hopefulness is gone. All of this happening now - when my D is getting married and my other two are graduating from HS and college.

I am lost