It's not easy, and the things you are feeling are perfectly natural. Don't try to fight it, but don't let yourself wallow unnecessarily. When you start to regain your strength, that's when you'll have to (and be able to) put in the effort for the PMA. It'll still be hard, but you'll know within yourself that you can do it. Just do your best until then!
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011