I am realizing just how slow this healing process needs to go. Those closest to me suggest that I am not the same person I was. It' not from a lack of effort. Maybe it's from denial. Denial of my anger. I am unreasonably angry about he and his gf prancing around so happily while I am carrying the burden of the house, the bills, the parenting downsides / I am PI$$Ed!!! Never been so torn up in my entire life.

So what to do now? Live a life of gratitude / slow down to heal / pray /

Do the next right thing...


M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years
Ds-24,22/S-18
D - 3/11
A Day at a Time