Husband has been home since Thursday evening. We have not had much chance to talk since we have had company, niece starting college in Wyoming we dropped her off yesterday and sister in law is still here. Husband has been very helpful and nice. But what I don't understand is after 30 years how I now seem to have cooties. It hurts to know that if I was the OW he would be in the same bed with her and hold and kiss her. I am not even thinking about having sex with him, I just want to hold hands and be held.

What is the thinking of these men when the come back home? Will this change? Is our marriage really that far gone that he can't hold me? I just want to give up at times. I just want to feel loved.

M 48
H 51
Married 30
S 29
D 28
GD 5
GS 17 months
Sep May 2011
H home 8-18-11