Yeah, I understand. If you allow the feelings to subside you feel you may begin to think maybe it's not as bad as you really know it is. I know, it's too easy to just sweep it under the rug, and you know you can't do that, not after you've already been through it.
Yes!!! That is exactly what I mean and how I feel! Thank goodness you know what I mean - maybe I'm not totally insane after all
Besides the emails and phone calls, are there other ways for ow to contact your H? Does she work or live near his work? Sometimes you can do on online search for someone. That's how I got the info on ow. I just felt I needed to know, although not everyone here would agree with becoming your own detective. vc
Unfortunately, yes. She no longer works with him, hasn't done for the last 4 years. This is how determined she was though....there "new" contact started because her cousin works in another department of H's work and she gave her cousin a note to send to H in the works internal mailing system!!!!!! I just think this is so predatory and was so shocked about it!
H broke down last night. He asked how I was feeling about things and I said I just can't see a way forward witout me feeling that I know what the truth is. He got angry and said some horrible things and went to bed. I was crying and decided I'd go for a drive to get out of the house and when I went to get my shoes from the bedroom he held me and said that he was so, so sorry. He said it over and over and then said he didn't know what he was going to do because he feels that he has lost me just when he has realised what a fool he's been and how much I mean to him. He said he can see know that he hasn't really had me on the pedestal a wife should be on for quite a few years now and that he realises that now and hopes I can let him earn my trust and love back because he can't bare the thought of loosing me. He said again that he thinks he's already lost me and so doesn't see what he can do or should be doing.
I didn't really know how to respond. I was crying a lot. Do I believe all these words!?!? I am struggling with not knowing what to believe since we're supposed to believe nothing a cheat says
