Do what I can but still have questions 3

[soccerwife]

Yes, I use my posts to vent a lot of the time. Laurie actually recommended that I journal to vent. Still, there is no way to make myself truly happy. I have a full life. I only lack love. I can find things to fill the time, keep myself busy, distract myself, but I always come back to the loneliness, self pity, and self-destructive thoughts. Like clockwork, it happens about every three to four days ever since the bomb, ILYB, was dropped.

Is this normal for LBS, or is there something wrong with me?

Today was another tough day, even with all of the GAL I got myself into ( I raised a good bit of money for a local non-profit today). I am still not feeling happy with myself or with life. H was not here to see my tough day, thank goodness. And by tomorrow when H gets home from his weekend of frolicking, I should have snapped out of it again, I hope. I will spend some time journaling in the morning to try to plan out the day so H doesn't see the aftermath of the craziness I went through over the weekend.