cam, no matter what you do, don't call and beg. I slipped, after promissing myself not to do it and tried to reason, but it didn't produce a da.n thing for me. In fact, I know it made things worse. I know better now.
I did it out of guilt, just like you are feeling now. It has been 3 months since my w left and so far nothing good.
Stay strong. We are all in the same shape. Focus on yourself as much as you can, especially on forgiveness for yourself. I'm 100% sure you were not as bad as you say you were, it's just really hard to see right now.
It takes 2 people to make a great or a bad relationship and your part is only half and no more. She has to take a responsibility for her actions as well.
