I've never posted on your thread before and don't have much sound advice for you, but I just wanted to let you know I feel your pain. I'm right where you are (albeit, in an entirely different sitch). It's such a tough and wearing place to get to emotionally and I really hope you're taking some time out to take care of yourself.
Wishing for the best for you.
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele