Hi, Hope. I'm sorry you have to be here. What are things like as far as your H seeing your D? Have you worked out visitation or anything?
Honestly, the best thing for me was to be away from my H and have as little contact with him as possible in the beginning. When you say you guys went to counseling for a long time, did you go together, individually or both? At this point in time he cannot handle and R talk or future plans. I would not even mention this.
Have you read DR? If not, get a copy yesterday and read it over and over and OVER again. It's like our bible. It will help you keep your sanity.