Just discovered affair please help

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Ugh! It's those things you read in the letter that make the skin crawl. As for the gifties, if he wasn't doing those so much before as his LL's, then it probably is his way of trying to make it all go away.

Yes I definitely think so VC, it is making me so cross! I mean, really, why would I want a bead for my bracelet so that I can be reminded every time I look at it of this awful time and why he bought it!?!?!

The big red stop sign does help when those things creep into your mind and won't let go.

I think at the moment I am not wanting to put up the stop sign - almost as if that would be letting him off the hook too soon - I know that probably sounds crazy and yes it is hurting me more than him

All I had to do was register the account number and phone numbers online, and each phone has its list of calls, and I have programmed all the ones I know with the names, so if ow name ever pops up, I will see it, unless it is a different one. It doesn't say ow, it says ho.

This seems like a good idea, I'll have to look into that, thanks VC!!

Ugh, so now I have started to have nightmares where I am faced with OW and H and I'm asking her why she had to hunt my H down after 2 years and she grins an evil grin and says because I can I really need to find out the truth before this drives me insane!! I am so tempted to contacct her but I know deep down this is a bad idea - but how else can I know for sure???