Walking in Muskeg - Part IV - Squishy Rubber Boots

[Queen_of_Swords]

Thanks for your response Angel61.
I'm glad you got how beautiful and pleasant the day really was.

I just hope that it might lead to a love which we possibly never had before.

Part of me hopes this is true in my situation. Another part of me is resigned to that not being true and working on my life moving forward with someone else in it.
Life is too short to be tolerated and I deserve and want more than that.

all the elements for one is there

I am not so certain of that in my case anymore. Now I'm the one that feels unemotionally/sexually moved in a positive way by STBX.
I look at him and it's like looking at someone I once knew in highschool, that I've now seen at the 20 year reunion. My glasses with the vaseline on the lenses have been cleaned and there is no softening of any hard edges anymore, no blurring of reality.
In short, I don't look at STBX with the eyes of love anymore. I do however notice the good in his personality and actions a lot more and mostly ignore the bad.

Regardless, today was a good day, I am happy, I continue to grow and work on me. That's the best I can do.
STBX will have to find his own way back into my life if he cares to.
I am not hanging on anymore and I am meeting other people for coffee, conversation and casual companionship.