An introverts scattered introduction

[Tina2111]

Hey Sadak, I am kind of where you are right now, my hubby is still acting crazy sometimes in the middle of MLC, and I have reached the point I can see a lot of his behavior is just like a rebellious teenager, and I can go, "it's ok...Same Stuff Different Day..." Like you, I am something of an introvert. I don't mind being alone so much, as long as I don't EXPECT my husband to be there for me. I have reached a certain acceptance that he can't really be anything for me right now. But that's OK. I don't mind my own company, and I have a good job and great kids and a single lifetime friend as well as my own family. I can be content. I am not terribly patient by nature, I am a little type-A even though I am an introvert. But I am learning to be more patient with him. I honestly can wait a few years and make a good life for my family. If he chooses not to come through it with me, we will be OK. I love him and I sincerely hope he will come out the other side with me. If he doesn't, we will be just fine.

I have learned that although I love him and I hope he will recover, I can and will build a happy life for the rest of my family. We want him to be part of it, but if he chooses not to, we will be happy anyway. Loss is part of life. We can be happy in spite of loss, if that is his choice. This is not cold. It is saying, "you are free, dear spouse, to make your own choices in life. But I am also free, to choose to make a happy life for our family. We hope you choose to be a part, but we will go on and build on whatever circumstance we have".

It is very, very, very empowering to be able to say..."I love my husband, and I hope he will be here. But if he is not, I am strong and have the love and light inside me to make a beautiful life anyway." It frees you both.

Many blessings,

Tina