Thank you 25. I am trying to keep as much normal as usual. Trying to keep some consistency. I am just floored your MIL never called you. I am trying to point out the "good". He payed the bill, etc. But, have made the same mistake you pointed out that you did too. Shame on me...I realize that now. Selfish of me and won't do it again.
25-Part of me is ready to move on and part of me wants to save my M. Spoke with H today about bills. During this convo. many tears and regrets are shed from H. Me too. Pain is so close to the surface when we talk. Says he doesn't want D. But, he doesn't deserve us. Whatever. Says he can't explain why hes done what hes done. Says none of it has been worth it. Cant face the kids. No one will ever forgive him - I said - not true. But, I said I can't fight his battle. I told him I have waited and fought for him now its his turn. TOld me he is not happy and never will be. Asked if he could call me and talk sometime. I said sure. And, that was the conversation. Just enough for me to get sucked into his vortex again.
