After 2.5 years, divorce final soon

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Well, we are separated, but I am pretty sure we will end up divorced, even though I don't want to.
My 1st H & I were high school sweethearts and I got pregnant at 18. (Actually I found out the day I graduated high school. Quite the graduation gift!)
We married when our S was almost 2 and we were just too young. I don't regret it because had we not we never would have had our second S and I love my kids to death.

I guess you could say I didn't deal with a lot of the issues I had growing up and also from my divorce. I was very angry inside and verbally abusive. My H got the brunt of my anger. I am ashamed at the way I treated him. Even though he wasn't perfect, a lot of the reasons we are apart is my fault.

I will say that his leaving was a wake up call for me that sh*t in my life needed to change. I started therapy and also found the right combination of anxiety/depression meds and have really turned myself around.
I'm sad that my behavior more than likely cost me my M, but I have learned a lot in these past 7 months and feel better than I have in years.