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[Lonely in SLC]

So, I just got back from signing all the paperwork to sell the house. We need to be out by next Tuesday.

The STBXW and I decided to go to lunch before heading over to close on the house. We went to our favorite Mexican restaurant again.

While we were eating she tells me the paperwork arrived from the court, they found the papers that they had lost and now "We are officially divorced." My XW stated "Isn't nice that the past is finished and that we can move on." I was not able to detect if moving on meant moving on separately or beginning together again.

I feel like I'm in that fog still. It hurts, but it is like a dull achy feeling, not a sharp unbearable pain like before.

Does this mean I'm doing a good job of detaching myself from the XW, or am I just doing a good job throwing up an emotionless wall around myself to protect me from hurting?

When I get home tonight, lying alone in my small apartment, will I cry, or will I drift off into the haze?

How should I feel?

Should I do something like a ritual to mark the occassion, to close this chapter of my life, or just move on like it's just another day?

I could use some thoughts, input, and support now.