Gotta agree with Harrier, change your focus, which is what you should have been doing all along (in your words, trying to get used to life without her)...
As far as the predictability of what is to come because you have no idea...
She is, at some point, going to try to draw you into R talk. Big R talk. There will probably be anger. There will probably be some blaming...
She will throw bait your way and it is gonna be up to you not to take it...
For you, and I don't usually say this, dark, right now, is your best option...
Because I don't think you can stop yourself from being reactive...
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
