"I did respond to her email asking her "Are you still Involved with him?"
It was pure reaction and I couldnt stop myself. (NO 2X4s Please)
Jeez, Louise...
Johnnie, I'm going to make 2 observations (with help from other posters):
#1. Someone on this forum has a tag line in their signature that says something to the effect of:
"Women admire men in control, not controlling men."
See the difference?
You have to get control of yourself. If you don't your W will never stop running from you. And I say this as a man who was not in control of himself and now has an official WAW.
#2. From Starsky309:
"Many months later, you're still spinning and reacting emotionally, and NOTHING good can come from that."
You have had a lot of golden advice, comments and encouragement given to you by some of the best people on this site, but it seems to wash right over you. I fear that soon the advice, comments and encouragement will begin to stop as people see you are stuck in the same place.
Johnnie, we all want to see you succeed at getting your life back on track. I want to see you rise up out of this mess as one incredible person who can turn around and then help others who come here broken as you are. We're not cheering for your marriage as much as we are cheering for you.
See the difference?
You can live without your W, if that is what it comes down to. It will be difficult at first, but it can be done. Because right now, you're not living. At least, not the way we're designed to live.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS