WTF?!?!

[Denver_2010]

Update...

This morning I sent a reply to W's email from last night:

Me: "I haven’t meant to avoid that question W. I just don’t see why it really matters to you at this point. Your words and your actions have made it very clear to me what you want right now. And at this point, as even you told me that night at SIL's, I need to move on with my life. That is what I am trying to do.

As far as dating goes, I was very honest with you that I am opening myself up to that happening.

I am trying to move on with my life W. In order to do that, I need to have space away from you so that I can get used to the idea of a life without you... so that I can be ready for a life without you. That is what I’m readying myself for.

But then you tell me that you love me and that you miss me. I can’t move on with my life when I am hearing that from you. If you love me and miss me, then choose to do something about it. Otherwise, let me do what I need to do.

The fact of the matter W is that I miss and love you too. More than anything in the world. I completely understand that you are unsure about us, but there are no guarantees with anything ever. Sure, it would take a lot of work W, but I’ve been consistent and I’ve been adamant for 9 months that it would be worth it and that we are capable of it. However, it hurts me when you have contact with other people outside of our marriage. I cannot continue to work on us and believe in us when there are other people involved with either of us. And I cannot continue to work on us and believe in us if you continue to have any contact with OM. If and when you are ever ready to commit to working on our marriage I would be open to sitting down with you and talking about that possibility and what we would need from each other in order for that to happen. For now, I am working on detaching myself from you, moving on, and trying to find some happiness again."