Thanks so much for the words of encouragement, V! I've been reading your thread and wishing/praying for the best for you.
When I say snapped, I don't mean yelled. I mean that my tone was forceful and I expressed my frustration. Whenever I experience a negative emotion with H, I tend to internalize it, think on it for awhile and then broach the subject with him after I've thought things through. H's anger and despondency can be so huge that there is no room for mine. I am by nature more of an easy going person, but I have often felt that I do not have a space to be angry or frustrated in my M because there was just no room for him to be angry and for me to as well. If that makes any sense.
As H was giving me the "I'm leaving you" talk, he started crying and said, "TG, you are so...so...sweet. It scares me."
It's odd because I am a strong woman and clearly capable. But everybody I've ever met always comments on my attitude and how sweet I am - I even get it from strangers who I meet and interact with.
So, this is a 180 for me, of sorts. I'm still trying to sort out if it is a good one or not.
Me: 33, H: 32 M: 12 years T: 13 years No kids D-Day: 7/2009 Separated: 10/12/10 Future Unknown GITS
"There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark." - Adele
