Please don't let me words to DG haunt you. They are meant to inspire you. smile
They inspire me too, but they do haunt me.
I realize I do have a worth and I have a price more precious than pearls. That one person sees a pearl as a irritating grain of sand covered by nacre and not their beauty is not my problem anymore. Others can! Only my own restrictions imposed on myself stand between me and finding someone that DOES appreciate me for who I truly am.
Just Stunned wrote:
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Queen of Swords, like the new name, though I thought I understood the old one. New name for a new outlook
Yes, I am no longer caught between two bad positions, with no where to escape. For Jack although you may quibble - This is the Queen of Swords : A person of sharp insight, persuasive, powerful and thorough. If extroverted, an administrator, an organizer, a firebrand, splendid as a summer's day - and sometimes as overwhelming. If introverted, a person of deep sentiment, susceptible to flights of ecstasy, of the flames of inner torment.
Just Stunned also wrote:
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Wait for a partner. Even the old one?
Yes, because they were a partner once.
I am waiting because I love my kids and believe they deserve a home with two loving parents. I wait because I really do love the guy, he has many sterling qualities and is a kind hearted, generous person in many ways. I wait because I made a promise not just to him but to myself. However, I realize that this is not solely dependent on me, and I can move forward, with or without him now.
Rick1963 wrote:
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Queen I am also starved for all those things. I did not know how painful this would be. But I will wait and fight for my M as long as I can. Something that I learned in my training is to challenge my negative thinking, that it is not the end of the world, that this will pass
Negative thinking is a challenge for me as well. To not get sucked into stinkin' thinkin' and the dark place where the sun barely shines. It is getting better. I am able to see opportunities where once before I saw barriers. I'm much more relaxed and unstressed about things. It's a huge relief!
Thank you all again for your response!
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
I think I'm going to rip my hair out, and go really nuts.
I took my kid on a dry run to school today. New school, and having to take the bus since I start a new job. STBX had promised to do it this weekend, but my kid was anxious and fearful and the uncertainty about it was affecting him badly. So seeing his schedule will be weekday schedule and not a weekend schedule I took him this morning. Easy. He's happy, and reassured he can handle this on his own.
I told STBX what I had done and why. He thanked me and acknowledged he would have been pressed for time to do this for our child. Then he asked about busing to music lessons for the youngest. I told him the plan on that.
He texts, " That's great."
I'll tell you I had such a rush of white hot rage at that comment.
None of this would be necessary, I wouldn't be doing any of what I'm doing and relying on my family to help me had STBX not run away leaving me holding the bag.
There. Just had to vent.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
Others can!
- This is the Queen of Swords : A person of sharp insight, persuasive, powerful and thorough. If extroverted, an administrator, an organizer, a firebrand, splendid as a summer's day - and sometimes as overwhelming. If introverted, a person of deep sentiment, susceptible to flights of ecstasy, of the flames of inner torment.