Another new thread, yay (she says, sarcastically). Don't know how to put in links. The first was too depressing (K-garten). I developed a ton in the second so it is worth reading (1st grade). I do feel like this is chapter three of this journey. I am now in 2nd grade and can relax at school (becoming old hat).
Took kids to County fair last night and we had a great time. S13 won a fish, D5 rode some rides with my girlfriend, and I got a chance to talk privately with her H who is on of my H's closest friends and someone I really trust.
For the first time I let him know some of the details about what has been going on (H's sleep issues, strange behaviors, and M woes). My friend was grateful that I shared because he has been noticing concerning behaviors as well. He is going to try to spend more time with H so that he can provide him support as well. He is going to ask him if he is ok and if he needs to talk about anything. I am so thankful for this. And I wish I had asked for this friends help sooner.
When we got home, H was here. I got kids to bed and then had some simple logistics conversation w/H that went very smoothly.
Big day planned for our fam today. S13 has junior high orientation and a therapy appt. H has a dr appt and soccer practice. I have my quarterly board mtng at work. And then both kids going to grandad's to stay over night. There is a lot of running around to do and then I will be alone for a good part of the evening. I plan to GAL.
I will read, since H won't be here to get offended. I will run for an hr, make myself a nice dinner.
The dangerous part is when H gets home at 9pm. I will watch some TV w him. I would like to stay up until 11 but don't know if that is a good idea. I do feel strong enough for some conversation tonight. I will test his mood, if he is grumpy, I am off to bed. If he is pleasant, I will hang out and let him approach me with conversation.
Me: 32/ H: 32/ S13/ D5 T: 15/ M: 8 Rock bottom: 4/11 ILYB: 5/11, but I knew it at least a yr before Gaining acceptance: 8/11
You must be the change you wish to see. - Mahatma Gandhi