i literally am not strong enough for this. i made it one day and discussion came up and away i ran with it. again. i could see her check out. but instead of stopping i think if i keep talking ill get myself out of this.
i do not think im good enough to do this. i have no self control or patience and i will lose her before i gain them. broke down and cried.
she said one thing to me, that was a blessing and a curse. she thinks i can change, just not with her. im used to bulldozing over her feelings too much and i cant change for her.
what if shes right? why do i feel like i can do this but not when her and i get together? i really did fail again. how many more times can i keep reseting before shes gone.
