Round and round you go until you decide to jump off, Tad.
You are trying to figure out someone who is a mess. Aint gonna happen. It makes no sense because it makes no sense.
Remove yourself from the madness.
Let her walk this journey, Tad. She needs to. You need to let her.
As long as you are still up in her head, as long as you are counting how many days you are married and worrying about who said what to who, you are going to continue to feel down.
Now I am not saying that you cant get down. All part of the process. It's how long you stay there and how much you are helping to put yourself there that matters.
Maybe she is saying you're fake because your changes arent real. They know if they are, you know.
And if you are making them to try to spin this a different way, instead of for yourself, she will know.
So, your choice, sweetie.
Only you have control over how you feel. No one can make you feel anything.
