My feelings are changing...sitch isn't

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone.

Mach to answer your question, my new job hasn't started yet. It'll be soon though. I go to orientation on Friday.

I'm having a crummy day today. Maybe it was because of all the crap from yesterday. I've been married for over 9400 days and in about 58 days, she wants to end it all.

W went to Sedona with her sister today. Her sister lives about 4 houses down from me. This morning I get this text from W:

W: "I hope you don't mind, but I parked the car in front of the house because there was no room in front of my sister's."

M: "That's fine."

Actually, there was room in front of her sister's house. Also, she visited her sister this past weekend and parked in front of her house. I just don't understand her. Like others on this board have said, she is all over the place.

I also found out during our conversation yesterday that she has been talking to my sister-in-law (my brother's wife) a lot. She's the kind of person that likes to stir the pot and keep things going. I'm sure everyone knows at least one person like this. Apparently, she has been telling all kinds of lies about me and my mom. She's been telling W that my mom has always hated her blah blah blah. I know for a fact that my mom loved my W like her own daughter. I don't know what to do about this. It obviously is not helping my situation at all.

It hurts too when W tells me that I am fake.

She also told me yesterday that she is the only one "trying". Trying what?

"Once again, I'm the only one trying. Just like it has always been."

You know what? She tells me all the time that she is "done", but I get the feeling that she isn't. Hopefully, it isn't wishful thinking on my part.

I just wish she would delay this.

I'm down today.

Sorry.

Tad